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  Francine Prose

  Bullyville

  For Bruno and Leon

  and Yesenia—the

  hope of the future

  Contents

  Chapter One

  THE SCHOOL I WENT TO, that worst year of my…

  Chapter Two

  ALL THE NEWSPAPERS said the same thing—word for word, more…

  Chapter Three

  DR. BRATTON CALLED and made an appointment, and actually came…

  Chapter Four

  WHEN I WAS LITTLE, I’d read a novel about a…

  Chapter Five

  AND SO BEGAN MY SAD career as one of the…

  Chapter Six

  SOMETIMES YOU HEAR people talk about waiting for the other…

  Chapter Seven

  IT WAS GREAT TO BE out of school for a…

  Chapter Eight

  SCHOOL STARTED AGAIN, and now we were in that narrow…

  Chapter Nine

  NEEDLESS TO SAY, I didn’t get thrown into a dungeon.

  Chapter Ten

  FAT FREDDIE, THE day-student bus driver, was assigned to drive…

  Chapter Eleven

  THE MINUTE I WALKED into school after Christmas vacation, I…

  Chapter Twelve

  ONE AFTERNOON, A few weeks before spring break, I went…

  Chapter Thirteen

  THE NEXT DAY, SATURDAY, Mom drove me to the hospital,…

  Chapter Fourteen

  TYRO WAS ABSENT from school for a week. Word got…

  About the Author

  Books by Francine Prose

  Credits

  Copyright

  About the Publisher

  CHAPTER ONE

  THE SCHOOL I WENT TO, that worst year of my life, was officially known as Baileywell Preparatory Academy. But everyone called it Bullywell Prep. Or Bullyville Prep. Or sometimes, Bullyreallywell Prep. Because that was what it prepared you for. You learned to bully or be bullied, and to do it really well.

  Perched high on a hill above our town so you could see it for miles, the school looked like a scaled-down, cheesy medieval castle. The walls were gray stones, large and rough as boulders. Once, in English class, a kid whom everyone called Ex (as in, Can we do this extra thing for extra credit?) read a poem he’d written (for extra credit) about an ancient race of giants rolling stones up Bailey Mountain to build Baileywell Prep so that famous knights in armor could go there.

  O Monster Masons!

  How we honor your dream

  That we Baileywellers would be in these seats today

  Like Lancelot and Aragorn

  Enjoying the fruits of your giant labors.

  The poem went on for about an hour. Or so it seemed, just as it seemed to me the giants must have been seriously retarded to imagine that King Arthur or the Lord of the Rings would want to attend a freezing, bully-ridden, all-boys boarding school on the highest point in Hillbrook, New Jersey. On clear days you could spot the school’s tower barely peeping out from under the toxic cloud that hung constantly over our high-priced (if you didn’t count our block) and rich (if you didn’t count our family) but severely polluted suburb. The kids at Bullywell, most of whom came from somewhere else, called the town Hellbrook. The kids I’d grown up with called it Hellbrook, too, but that was our privilege, we’d earned it. It was our town, we’d lived there all our lives.

  Among the things I never understood about Baileywell was why everything and everyone had to have a nickname. In all the time I was there, I never learned the real names of kids I knew only as Pork or Dog or Buff. The gym was “the sweat lodge,” the dining hall—the refectory—was “the slop shop.” Our headmaster, Dr. Bratton, was never called anything but Dr. Bratwurst. In fact, he did look a little like a sausage that had figured out how to walk around on remarkably tiny feet and wear glasses and one of those unstylish college-professor tweed jackets with leather patches on the elbows.

  The school’s main building, Bracknell Hall, was known as Break-knuckles Hall. It had a pointed roof and notched turrets. Most likely they were just meant to be decorative—unless some crazed architect actually imagined that a crack team of archers or sharpshooters might someday need to defend the school from an invading army. But who would want to capture it? No one even wanted to go there. A tower rose from the highest point on the roof, but no one ever climbed it. The entrance to the tower had been permanently bricked shut, supposedly for safety and insurance purposes.

  But there was another story, which Bullywell students and the rest of the town did, and didn’t, believe. People said that some long-ago bullies, pioneers of the school’s great tradition, had chased their victim into the tower and sealed it off and he’d died there, and the school had hushed it up. On windy nights, people said, you could still hear the dead kid screaming for his mom and dad.

  People told lots of stories about Bullywell Prep. They said a gang of bullies had drowned one kid in a pot of split pea soup, and at lunch the next day his eyeballs bubbled up to the surface of the music teacher’s bowl. They said that, in the dead of night, ambulances pulled up to the back gate and picked up kids who’d been bullied until they were hopelessly insane, and carted them off to mental asylums from which they never returned. They said that every year, at the Bullywell graduation, there was always one kid whose brain had been so destroyed he couldn’t even remember how to say thank you when they handed him his diploma.

  I’d heard all those stories—and scarier ones—before I started at Bullywell. But what happened to me there seemed even worse, I guess because it happened to me.

  Through seventh grade, I’d gone, like most of the kids in my town, to Hillbrook Middle School. And before that, we’d all gone to Hillbrook Elementary. School was school, no one thought about it all that much. It was just a place we went, something we did every day.

  In class, me and my friends had long ago figured out how to stay in constant communication and still keep quiet enough to not wind up in the principal’s office. We listened—or pretended to listen—to our teachers. We did exactly as much homework as we had to, and not one minute, not one second, more. Already my mom had started saying I should begin thinking ahead, to college, but that was way much farther ahead than I could imagine.

  As far as I was concerned, school was where I got to hang out with my friends, most of whom I’d known since the first grade. Lunch and gym were the best parts of the day, though none of us—me, Mike Bannerjee, Tim Reilly, Josh Levine, and Ted Nakamura—were all that good in gym. We didn’t care about playing on the teams, but nobody gave us a hard time. The other kids seemed to like us okay. We were flying miles under the radar, and that was where we liked it. We laughed a lot, we had fun.

  Looking back, I can see how safe and sheltered and naive we were. None of us realized how we should have been thanking our lucky stars that we were at Hillbrook rather than Baileywell.

  At Hillbrook Middle School, even the teachers made jokes about Bullywell. When a kid acted up in class, a teacher might say something like, “Young man, maybe the best thing for you would be a semester at Baileywell.” Then everyone would giggle nervously, as if the teacher had said that the best thing for the kid would be to smear him all over with honey and tie him down on an anthill swarming with stinging red ants.

  Even then, I half suspected that the reason people talked so much about the school was probably that there was nothing else to talk about. Nothing ever happened in our town. No murders, no break-ins, not even a one-joint drug bust. There were two town cops, who, as far as I could tell, spent all their time giving out parking tickets on Main Street and rushing to the scene of an occasional fender bender. It was exciting to imagine that a chamber of horrors existed in plain sight on a hill above our town, and that cruel rich parents
spent small fortunes to send their abused, unhappy children there.

  There’s a saying I heard once: Nothing happens. Nothing happens. Then everything happens. And that year I learned that, like so many sayings, it was not only true, but true in a way that no one could possibly have predicted. Not even in their worst nightmares.

  For a long time, nothing happened. And then the Big Everything that happened was so terrible that we completely stopped making up stories about what went on at Bullywell. It was as if we could no longer imagine a world in which we would even want to spread terrifying rumors about a school. Because, as it turned out, real life was so much better at dreaming up horrors, real life had been dreaming up the major nightmare, all along.

  Among the unwanted side effects of the Big Everything that happened was that I found myself transformed. My life, as I’d known it, was over. As if by magic, I was changed from an ordinary kid into a character in a fairy tale, into plucky, stupid little Jack scrambling up the beanstalk to find himself in a castle surrounded by evil giants masquerading as happy, healthy, well-adjusted Baileywell Bullies.

  I started eighth grade at Hillbrook Middle School, the same as always, and, as always, the first days of school seemed to shine with a bright, hopeful light. The weather was sunny, and the outlines of everything looked slightly sharper and clearer, the way they do when summer is turning that corner into fall. Everyone had brand-new clothes and book bags, notebooks full of empty pages that gave off that clean-paper smell. And all of us (or anyway, me) were still promising ourselves that this year we’d try harder, like our moms (or anyway, mine) wanted us to. This year we’d actually get good grades instead of just getting by.

  As always, there were a few awkward moments when my friends and I talked about what we’d done on vacation, and I remembered that their families were richer than mine. Not that much richer, but rich enough so they’d done cooler things over the summer. Ted and Mike had gone to fancy sleepaway camps, Josh and Tim had taken long trips with their parents. Me, I’d spent July and August swimming in my gran’s aboveground pool, mowing the lawn for my various aunts, and occasionally babysitting my youngest cousins. But it only took a little while before I forgot all that, and I remembered how hilarious my friends could be, and how much fun it was when we got together.

  And then one morning, a week or so after the beginning of eighth grade, I woke up and watched the globe on my bookshelf spin in swimmy circles without anyone touching it or being anywhere near it. I was freezing. I couldn’t stop shivering. I called my mother into my room and asked her if she saw the globe spinning, too.

  She put her cool hand on my forehead and said, “Dear God, what do we do now?”

  Like any normal kid, I loved staying home from school sick. A little achiness and some shaking chills were nothing compared to the unlimited TV, all the juice you could drink, plenty of sympathetic or even worried looks from Mom, the occasional cold washcloth on your forehead. What could be better! But getting sick during the first week of school made it a little less perfect. I hadn’t had time to get tired of school yet. I felt as if something important or even fun might be happening somewhere without me, and that I was missing it, and that I might never catch up or be allowed to join the party.

  My mother liked my being sick even less than I did. She worked all day in the city, and I no longer had a regular babysitter she could call in emergencies. For the last year or so, I’d been allowed to stay home alone between the time I got home from school and when Mom got back from work. But sick changed the ground rules completely. My mother was no more capable of leaving me home alone sick than she was of levitating off the ground and flying me on her back, like an angel, all the way to her office in downtown Manhattan.

  Perhaps this is the moment to say that, in case you haven’t already figured it out, my dad no longer lived with us. He hadn’t been around much for about six months. He had gone to live with a woman named Caroline, who was younger and who was supposed to be pretty. And as if that weren’t vile enough, as my mom kept saying, Caroline worked in the same office as my mother and father. And she hadn’t even had the decency to quit after she and my dad fell in love. “Love!” my mom would say, screwing up her face as if she’d bitten into a lemon. So there they were, in my mom’s face, Monday to Friday, nine to five.

  I didn’t watch that much TV, but I’d seen enough talk shows and soap operas and made-for-TV films to know that a middle-aged married guy ditching his wife for a newer, hotter model was pretty standard operating procedure for middle-aged married guys. Or, as my mom put it, our whole situation was a “banal, humiliating cliché.”

  And there was one more odd detail, which was that my mom and I somehow hadn’t gotten around to making a public announcement that my dad wasn’t living with us anymore. Mom and I never exactly planned not to tell anyone. But the first time I heard Gran ask how Dad was and I heard Mom say that he was fine but just really busy, I knew that his leaving was going to be our weird little secret.

  At first I was almost annoyed that Mom didn’t complain more, that she didn’t announce to the whole world what a creep Dad was and what he’d done to us. But after a while I decided it was fine with me, not having to tell my friends. I wasn’t in a rush to broadcast the bad news.

  Even though I knew plenty of kids with broken families and stepsiblings and the whole Brady Bunch situation, as far as I could see, divorce earned you an instant heavy dose of the wrong kind of attention. People felt sorry for you, and when it was time to arrange parent-teacher conferences, the teachers called you aside and got all gooey-eyed and asked, in a whisper, which of your parents was planning to show up. That wasn’t how I wanted to end seventh grade or begin the eighth.

  The main thing was, I don’t think Mom was ready to tell her mom and her sisters, all of whom were supposedly happily married. So whenever Gran and my aunts came over, we made some excuse. Dad was working late, he was away on business, the boss had invited him to play golf and he couldn’t refuse. If anyone noticed, or thought it was strange, no one seemed to want to talk about it, either. No one ever pointed out that Dad didn’t even play golf and he’d never gone away on business. All of which made me realize that he’d been missing in action for a long time before he’d actually bailed and moved in with Caroline.

  It’s not as if Mom and I were the kind of lunatics who set a place at the dinner table for Dad every night and pretended he was coming home. We knew what the story was. My mom and dad had called a sort of family conference so they could tell me together that they were splitting up, and that they both still loved me and that it wasn’t my fault. The usual routine that divorcing parents feel they have to go through. For the kids’ sake. Everybody cried, even Dad. Only later, after Dad had moved out and taken most of his stuff, did Mom decide to tell me the Caroline part.

  I knew it had to be tough for her, still working with the two of them in the same office. But when she came home from work, she left it at the office. We just didn’t talk about Dad. It was if he didn’t exist. We knew we were both really sad about his being gone. We just didn’t need to say it. It was almost as if saying it would have made us feel even more abandoned and pathetic.

  Most weekends, Dad called on the phone to speak to me. He and I had the sort of conversation (“What’s new?” “Nothing.” “How’s school?” “Fine.”) that would have been a totally normal parent-kid conversation if he’d still been part of the family. But now that he was gone, it seemed like some kind of big drama in which I was refusing to talk. And when Dad asked if we could hang out together—and, to tell the truth, he’d been asking that less and less often—Mom told him that they would work all that out in the divorce settlement, but that she and I were both feeling too fragile now. I didn’t like being called fragile, but I let it go, for Mom’s sake.

  After that, Dad started calling me on my cell phone and sending me text messages telling me he still loved me, but I never answered them, and when I recognized his number, I didn’t pick up. Ever
y so often—and, of course, I wouldn’t have told anyone this—I called Dad at work. I had a whole speech prepared in my mind, a speech in which I told him exactly what he’d done to us and I asked him how he could have done it. But I always got his voice mail, and I never left a message.

  Unfortunately, all this meant that we couldn’t call Dad when Mom needed someone to stay home with me that September day when I was sick. She phoned Gran and Aunt Anita and then the other aunts—Aunt Grace and Aunt Barbara and Aunt Faye—in order of how much she liked them. But they’d all left for work. She called Ivy, the totally hot high school girl who used to babysit me. But it turned out that Ivy had left for her freshman year of college.

  Mom hung up the phone and said, “How could Ivy be grown up? How could she be in college already?” And it was that, as much as anything else, that convinced Mom to call in to work and pretend that she was sick, so she could stay home with me.

  When the phone rang, almost immediately, we thought it might be Gran or one of the aunts calling back. Mom answered. Then the phone rang again.

  And after that it didn’t stop ringing for days.

  CHAPTER TWO

  ALL THE NEWSPAPERS said the same thing—word for word, more or less, with only slight variations. A couple of them spelled my name wrong, and, as if the truth wasn’t dramatic enough, one paper—out in Colorado, I think—said I’d been home sick with pneumonia. At first I wondered how they’d found out about me. Did a neighbor tell them, or maybe someone from school? And then I stopped wondering because, by then, the papers were telling each other.

  The headline and the story that followed always went something like this: